i am now on tumblr

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currently reading...

with a side of....

pretty excited to finish both =]

although its mothers day 

this is a blog that goes out to my dad.

i wish he realized that the 20 years he fucked up

isnt gonna come back

yes..my parents are still together

and my dad has lived with me my whole life

but he was never there.

it was always me and my mom making excuses

as to why he wouldnt be making an appearance to family functions

and the only thing he would do for me

is put money in my wallet

and never tell me i couldnt do something

he just tried winning me over by being the good guy

he failed.

and every time him and my mom fight

he tells me how sorry he is for being a shitty father

but when everything is ok with my mom again

nothing about his actions change

im 20 now

and im over it

i could only recall one time we truly hung out

and i think its stupid that he wants to be right with me

just cause hes in the shit house with my mom

he is completely obsessed with her

and it disgust me

as sad as it is...

my mom could do something fucked up

and i would still be on her side

yes hes my father

but hes never been my dad

pointless

chillin in the library 

is never as fun as it seems

but it does seem that i get a lot more done here 

than anywhere else.

i sure could go for some coffee bean

orrr i think im gonna buy myself my own little coffee maker

which would have came more in handy 

the beginning of this semester.

im a little late. 

oooo and i figured out how to print task checklist

from my printer....again  i was too late.

on to other news

work is kicking my ASS

and so is my english paper

it sucks cause i want nothing more than to go home and sleep

but NOPE, dom has to write a paper.

(sorry for speaking in third person)

man i have to pee

and i dont want to get up and go.

i probably should since i have class in about 10 mins

annnywaayyyy

this bulletin was way too long

and way too pointless

until next time =]

finally

i love that i can finally say 

the sight of you makes me sick!!

i never thought it would 

considering i loved you more than anyone ever will

but ive finally dealt with way too much of your shit

but i will be the bigger person

and wish you nothing but good things out of life

but i still believe that karma is a bitch

and she will destroy you more than she has already...

she will break you

but i definitely will not be there to pick up the pieces

so long broken heart.

=]

&you cant blame a girl, for sticking to what she knows

Last night i saw Taking Back Sunday 

and i had that amazing feeling

when you hear music and ridiculous amounts of memories come rushing back 

and not only when i see them live 

but when their songs come on i get super emotional

(good emotional)

something about 

TBS, Brand New, Blink, SOCO

bands that made me loooovveeee music

that made me want to go out there 

and listen to bands that inspired them to do music

 i felt like those bands were always the bands i could relate to

it always seemed they knew just the right things to say!

it seemed that music was the only thing that mattered 

not living up to the latest and greatest trends

they didnt have to "rock" the bright tees 

and too tight neon pants

and if they did...we all knew it was a joke.

they didnt feel the need to prove anything

it was simply music.

i have no idea where this bulletin is going

but i felt like after last night

i needed to blog.

hahah

<3

reckless

part of growing up

is realizing you are not invincible.

you dont have superhero strength 

and bad things do happen no matter what age.

im guilty of thinking that bad things happen to people

but nothing will happen to me

im safe

i know how to drive

i know not to talk or follow strangers

and everything i do is safe and FINE!

just as i know most of you think the same

we are young adults

who wish we could party everyday

(or for some of us..we do)

but as much as we dont like to admit it...

drinking and/or drugs

lead to stupidity

my cousin was in an accident last night

because him and his friends

were drinking 

he fell and hit his head

and is now in intensive care.

the doctors said he wouldnt be the same

but luckily at around 7

he started to talk again

and is able to move his body

they still dont know everything about his condition 

but he is making progress

i love you kurtis 

and i hope this was an eye opener

not only for you 

but for everyone.

i wish it didnt have to happen like this

but i guess they were right to say God works in mysterious ways.

i love you 

you are my life!

as much as i bitch at you 

its only because i feel someone needs to watch over you

but you are a fighter

and i know you are going to be 100% better!

<3