black to the future

so the title has nothing to do with this blog

but yeah

just thought id share with you some movies i wanna see

(if you have a mac check out apple trailers, they are allll there)

the trailers at least

sorry i didnt write something about each

but i decided to post this at 130 in the morning

so yeah

check them out if you are bored one day

<3

Infatuated with love

love and its stories have always got my attention 

whether it be cheesy stories on find your true love

on a subway or in a park

or cheating men who find out too late that they love you 

but i think how kids view love is the CUTEST thing ever...

"love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." -Noelle, age 7

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."-Karen, age 7

this ones the BEST!

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't ben over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."-Rebecca, age 8

had to post this

yes.

second blog in one day

but thanks to Vero

i was able to see this badass video

and since i was unable to figure out 

how to post a video...

just click the link

do it!

its worth it

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_HXUhShhmY

gotta love the college life

i suffer from a horrible case of procrastination

and to this day i haven't found a cure

possibly shutting of the internet so i cant look at the latest john mayer twitter

or so i cant visit OMG! to read the latest gossip

and then! when it gets real bad

i feel like i make up websites to visit just because it sounds so much better than homework

not only do i have homework everyday

i dream about it when i sleep

(thats when i actually get the chance)

im living off of 2 cups of coffee a day.

I've been telling everyone that sometimes

i wish

i had more to rely on then just my brain

too bad i wasn't ridiculously tall and skinny

so i could model

or too bad i didn't have the talent (or lack of stage fright) to be an actress

even a struggling one would be nice

or too bad i wasn't some crazy prodigy 

who knew how to play every instrument

or have a good enough voice to sing!

but nope.

i have to join the millions who attend college

just so i can one day pray for a job 

that will make me enough money to survive

and that will make me happy enough to want to.

fuck my life?

i think so.

now back to the books.

i guess high school was a musical?

(ignore my lame take on words, and the lame shout out to hsm)

so i was at dees last night

and this morning before i left

we were skimming through some old mix cds

and they were basically the sound track to our 

high school lives!

so i will share with you what our songs were

and if you are one of the few that read this

tell me yours!

1. You Give Love a Bad Name- Bon Jovi

(we would randomly break out in song singing that ^)

2. Slow Down- The Academy Is..

3. The whole Blink 182 cd

(basically had karaoke every lunch with blink)

3. La La - Ashlee Simpson

4. Hands Down- Dashboard Confessional

5. Dance Dance- Fall Out Boy

6. Anything Anything- Dramarama

(always will remind me of Armida)

7.Get Low- Ying Yang Twins

(played at EVERY dance)

8. Sexy Back-Justin Timberlake

9. Mr. Brightside- The Killers

10. Everthing is Alright- Motion City Soundtrack

(top down driving to the glasshouse to "see" them)

11. Moan- Cute Is What We Aim For

12. Lying is the Most Fun a Girl can have Without Taking Her Clothes Off- P!atd

(yep that song was song on the daily)

13. So Contagious- Acceptance

14. The Middle- Jimmy Eat World

15. My Friends Over You- New Found Glory

16.I'd do Anything- Simple Plan

17. That's so You- The Rocket Summer

18. Cute Without the "e"- Taking Back sunday

19. All Hail the Heartbreaker- The Spill Canvas

20. Punk Rock Princess- Something Corporate

21. Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't- Brand New

So that was a lot more than i thought

but i can think of PLENTY more.

man good time.

a story

i seem to be good (or well decent)

at giving others advice

but i cant seem to figure out my own life

and my own thoughts

and my own problems.

just my luck.

final thought of the night

i pray that one day 

you decide to live outside your bubble

i hope you realize

just because people arent like you

it doesnt mean they are horrible peole

youve been so sheltered your whole life

that i think the real world 

will tear u to pieces

so i pray that you can handle it

i hope you practice what u preach

and i hope you no longer judge.

ive never judged you and the life you live

so dont judge mine.

or my friends.

differences make the world go round.

if we were all the same

life would be shitty and boring.

i hope one day

you decide to live a little.

because then, and only then can you have an opinion on my life, 

and my friends lives.

dont judge something

youve never done

or youve never been around.

i care about you 

and i always have

never once have i not been supportive

now i think its your turn.

I've never really had a problem explaining how i feel to people

but lately its becoming VERY difficult.

and today 

I've been an emotional wreck

sober house made me cry 

tyra banks made me cry 

and no...it is not what all(or well the few of you that read this) are thinking

so as i sit here

trying to figure out 

what the hell my problem is

it seems like my ipod is out to get me

i put it on shuffle

and every sad song seems to play

i know i have some happy music on there

but it hates me.

the worst part of all this is

that whenever im having a bad day 

i think its karma coming out to get me

and i sit and think over and over again 

about what i did wrong 

or who i did wrong too

and it eats away at me.

well 

i guess today is gonna be the day 

where im gonna escape for awhile

or attempt to atleast.

blah.

goodness

So as much as this book creeps me the fuck out, 

it is worth the read.

(its about a man who is lusting of "in love" with a girl whos twelve)

his descriptions are ridiculously mind-blowing

and as much as i want to throw up, i cant put the goddamn book down!

but on another not

yes, still about literature...kinda.

my lit class is a-fucking-mazing

(and no not only because i get to hear my sexy teacher

discuss freuds psychosexual theories and turn every thing from a story

into something amazingly sexual) 

but because i have never felt so inspired!

the authors we read and analyze are lovely

and the stories

are ten times more wonderful!

 i have enjoyed book since i could read,

but im beginning to look at literature sooo differently

and now i gotta pick up more of the classics

maybe minoring in lit?

hmm...

ps. phone calls that are meant to feel awkward

that feel oddly comfortable...

make me think.

=]

hmmm

ive been feeling super burned out lately 

so my brain isnt allowing me to think of something insightful to write

or worth your time to read.

but today was a good day...

although i think my emotions are beginning to run dry.

blah