I've never really had a problem explaining how i feel to people

but lately its becoming VERY difficult.

and today 

I've been an emotional wreck

sober house made me cry 

tyra banks made me cry 

and no...it is not what all(or well the few of you that read this) are thinking

so as i sit here

trying to figure out 

what the hell my problem is

it seems like my ipod is out to get me

i put it on shuffle

and every sad song seems to play

i know i have some happy music on there

but it hates me.

the worst part of all this is

that whenever im having a bad day 

i think its karma coming out to get me

and i sit and think over and over again 

about what i did wrong 

or who i did wrong too

and it eats away at me.

well 

i guess today is gonna be the day 

where im gonna escape for awhile

or attempt to atleast.

blah.